Monday, December 31, 2007

If you dont plan - Plan to fail

Good Morning
The day before a new year & Im soooooo exicted. I dont think Ive ever been this excited about going into a new year or at least not in a long time. (feels like the day before the first day of school)

Right now I have a couple of things that I need to take care of to make going into 2008 smooth, peaceful and with target results.

Goals for the year: (Personal)
Travel to 3 different countries this year (Costa Rica just has to be one of them)
Buy my house by March
Pay off my car and/or student loans
Go visit my cousin Marcus for his birthday in February (Georgia)
Go visit my grandma for her birthday in February (North Carolina)
Go visit my cousin Nichelle in B'ham
Go visit Maya & Dalila in NYC
Spend more designated time with my mom
Spend more time with Savion & Sandra
Ryane's graduation (important event)
Take at least one bible school class at my church
Kiera's graduation and 18th birthday (important event)
Recover all my lost property from my house fire (by February)
Get engaged and/or married (to a serious propect)
Buy more jewlery to fill my jewlery box up with
Spend less money (take my lunch &/or stick to my budget)
Come up with and follow a monthly budget
Save $10,000
Finish all dental work in my mouth
Take my vitamins and stay in a constant optimal state of health
Read all the books I started:
Spider Spin Me a Web
Why Men Marry Bitches
Telling Lies for Fun & Profit
A Confederacy of Dunces
The Lexus and the Olive Tree
The 48 Laws of Power
(all of which Ive started and have yet to finish)
Cut back on some of my pampering expenses (may have to start doing my own nails again)
Do Yoga at least twice a week
Drink 6-10 glasses of water daily
Be more productive with my time
Learn to say no - Actually say no and then walk away (I know its so Oprah & Doctor Phil)
Go to morning prayer at least twice a week
And lastly - think before I speak and speak more slowly when answering questions

Thursday, December 27, 2007

I wish I could slack off right now
Not go into work and accomplish things
Not listen to people's problems
Not create a to-do-list of all the things I have-to/need-to do
Not plan or write my goals for the coming year
Not save
Not be mindful - rather be reckless

Count down to a new year's celebration

I should be sleeping but I'm up writing this blog
I up because I ate something sweet and I reminded myself, although I am comfortable in my bed - I need to get up and brush my teeth (and so I did).

And if you knew - like I knew the inconvenience a tooth ache could cause - you would get out of your warm bed and brush your teeth too

Early this year I discovered that I had cavities due to drinking coffee - how absolutely terrible for me to discover this - considering that I do not plan to give it up.
Apparently, because I used to sip on coffee all day long it created a pH in my mouth that was acidic to my teeth

Now because I actually (try) to listen to my dentist because I don't want to be old with missing teeth. I do not drink more than 2 cups of coffee and nothing passed 12ish (noon)
Besides, if I drink coffee all day - I wont even be hungry

Okay - so its late 11:42pm
Why don't I go to sleep again
Oh yeah, because I got up to brush my teeth and then I remembered that I don't know what I'm doing for New Year's. I need to see what my options are. Being not used to "going out" on this evening - I really am drawing a blank. I would like to get dressed up - but to spend money at a club or at a restaurant is not very appealing to me.
So does anyone have any ideas??????????????

It would be nice to get out of dodge - but then you have to decide North or South - East or West. Although it would be really nice - traveling also includes lodging and then you might as well have spent that $100-$150 at the club (not)

I have 3 days to decided and I just don't think I have enough time

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Awkward Conversations

Im trying to think about what we have to talk about even when I feel like talking about stuff with you.
I get a call that Im so used to answering and then Im answering all the standard questions until Im looking at my phone keeping track of the minutes (wow, have we managed to communicate a whole 2 minutes and 54 seconds). Only to then say - I'll talk to you some other time...

Saturday, December 22, 2007

I cant stop rambling

12:29am

Okay I should be going to sleep. But Im up washing clothes, eating pecan pie and trying to finish this blog.

Its funny - Its like Im doing homework or something (nice assignment)

Hey... why dont you say "Nice" anymore - must have been the word of the week



(Pause)



whew... Im back I had to brush my teeth after eating that pecan pie - Im sure my dentist will be VERY proud of me. Speaking of which - I will probably undergo major surgery next month as I have been putting of getting this route canal. Thank the heavenly Father that the tooth is not bothering me - but anyone who has ever had teeth pain - knows that that is the worst kind of pain (sorry I havent experience child birth) that one can experience. And, so I advoid it at all cost. Sometimes I forget and wake up in the middle of the night wash my face and brush my teeth...



Anyhow, getting off subject...



Marathon:

How many people actually set a pace for the relationship experience they enter in. I mean most people would say that they are going with the flow, some take it slow and others fast-forward through the movie (LOL). I think I was more-so going with the flow on the first date with this guy that I will title in the paragraph Marathon. Only thing is that the flow picked up by the end of the date and it felt something like being on a treadmill that sped up all of suden. First your walking, walking faster, running until you are running unto the point of being out of control - tryng to press all the buttons that makes the machine slow down.

Whew... my mind didnt recover from the Marathon because I wasnt ready to run. And as anyone not fit, not trained, mostly not prepared - I suffered - but not from sore muscles, more like sore decisions. Then again I wonder - have I become too exact?

Since then, Ive been in training so that Im ready for the long stretch...



Gentleman (I think Ralph Tresvant called it - a man with sensitivity) hahaha

I guess you dont always realize that there are not enough men who believe and practice some good old fashion chivary. This has taken me aback because I have learned to move fast, not wait for people (men, women, whomever) and I am totally un-prepared for someone who wants me to wait for them to open my car door.

Wow, thats pretty sad - because anyone that knows my mama would know that she would not even leave the car if her door wasnt opened for her -lol..

Getting tired
trying to figure whats taking me so long to finish this post

6:15pm
Its been a long day already and Im not sure what Im getting into
Gotta call from Sandy last night and earlier today and as usual she is MIA
She cracks me up and I know if she read this she would probably say that she feels the same thing about me sometimes

My feet and hands are freezing - I think Im suffering from bad circulation
on top of that - I cant stop rambling

Friday, December 21, 2007

Ready
Set
Go...

I really dont know what to call him (this new addition to my life-style)
The Marathon Man
The Gentle-Man
or the Mis-Communicator

I guess I will focus on all three points.

Hello All - I know its been a while and my blogs have been rather dry as I have tried not to reveal certain things that have been going on in my life.

I recently googled myself and found some interesting things that pulled up (or rather things that my name is associated with). So... when my blog appeared on the page - I noticed that certain pages were highlighted and it took me back to - "how I used to be." I guess I was (pausing for a minute -wondering if I still am) some what of a fire ball, a no tolerance, take it or - leave it kind of person that found myself entertained by all the random things that happen to me (still now) on a daily basis.


Yesterday, I went to the dealership to inquire about purchasing a set of keys & remote for my mom's car and I received 2 "offers" (take notes because my cousin always reminded me that I was constantly receiving offers - at this time I deciede to accept or deny applications) okay so one guy who has been trying to detail my car - for free, tint my windows - for free and take me out to ruth chris (for the past 3 months) - made appoint to ask me if I wanted my car washed yesterday. When I actually said yes (to the car wash - in which I was going to pay for) he was no where to be found it was probably a blessing in disguise. I let him detail my car the last time I got an oil change and I couldnt get the nigga to stop calling me about tinting my window. (By the way - I paid for it with cash) I mean, every day he called me asking me if this was the day I was going to allow him to do some "free advertisement" (if you didnt get that - no charge for the service or parts) on my not-so noticable vehicle. (Red-flag) Seeing how much he was bugging me for that - going out to dinner was definitely a NO-NO, I dont need any leches... The mere fact that he had my number was simple for business purposes when I needed a repair on my car and had to leave it at the dealership. He - being the kind person he is, dropped me off and picked me back up after the car was finished (Folks, they had to do this because they refused to give me a loaner car). I guess to make a clear point he deciedes not to drop me off not in the company car but in his own vehicle (Benz truck - a BIG whatever to me) because it was more convient. (Red Flag) He even offered to let me drive his car while working on my car (Red Flag)- I happily DENIED, thats too kind and I really dont know you or your insurance policy like that. He now holds the un-defeated title of : Mr Super Pressed

Second Offer at the car dealership - is probably because he wants me to buy another car. Although, I really couldnt tell at the point where he shook my hand long enough for me to feel weird about it. Then he started asking about how my holidays were going and what was I in for today... blah blah blah. He gets no title - should he re-appear the next time I go to the dealership for service, maybe then I can gadge what he really wants.

There is something about this new guy that makes me THINK and not my normal everyday thinking in which I try to read a persons thoughts/intentions vs. their actions. I can't even explain how Im thinking in this case. I think Im the subject of "what's a girl like you doing single?" This very question alone posed in ones mind only leads to doubts about how genuine I am - which actually I wonder the same thought... "what's a guy like you doing single?" TOO?

For anyone who really wants to know - WHY, I am single. & this is no candid response - the truth of the matter is that (& I will only speak for & of myself leaving the other person out of it) I have to be me... and I cant be me (comfortably) around you

Okay - its time for me to go to the company Christmas Party - so I will have to finish this later

(To Be Continued)

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Long conversations about nothing
about something
you heard
or observed
and yet
you werent preturb
to hear that you were falling

Here I go thinking
again
Sorry

Here I go wishing
and then
I called you
just to say
I want you
in the worst way
I touch you
and you take me to places Ive never been
Im lying
I've been there before
but its nice to return there again

I wonder
why you walk away from me
or you run away
I wish you would just stay with me
Dont make me have to ask you this way