Update

What's going on?
With me....

Welll - Im becoming a little homebody (just not spending too much time at my home)
Contemplate going out every now and then - only to go on eviplist.com & realize Im not missing nothing
Miss my girlfriends a lot - I have to schedule in visits and phone calls - and its hard not having a car - believe me you would see me more often if I did
I cut my hair - which is a big freakin deal... slowly getting use to it
I changed my phone number - which closed several doors and put in a different room
Trying to stay true to my never-ending to-do-list (I check old stuff off and add new stuff almost every week)
Still wishing for world peace and more laughter
Started to collect stamps as a hobby (but only the black folks)
24 is back on - so I have an offical date with the television (channel 5) every Monday night (OH & even an occassional 10 o'clock bad news)
I still drink coffee in the morining and a glass a wine before bed (water is in between)
Im currently a size 4
I really want to go to Costa Rica this year
& everytime I look in the mirror - I try to be less critical

Well... Stay tunned

On Scrap Paper

Unlike most people my age -
my goals do NOT include "how to become a millionaire" before I turn 30
Right now - I am 26 and if I was really considering setting a goal, I think I first want to know
What God's plan??? For my life

I wish NOT to be wasting time - on things that are not worth my time

A few weeks ago - I wanted an X5 (BMW Truck) - I've changed that to a Cayenne (Porche truck) -
F.Y.I.its been brought to my attention by a few folks that think they know my (smile) that I like nice things (aka expensive things)

But truthfully - what I want today , may not be what I want tomorrow

So HOW can I want to be a millionaire by the time I turn 30 - what significance does that really make on my life??? (other than - more money more problems)

I can wish and pray to be not so.... attracted to "nice" things -
for the Bible says -

"thou shall not want"

But I want a lot - of things
a whole LOT of things
and this world is a big candy store (shake your laffy taffy)
& I know it takes money to buy the products in front of me
Man can not live off of - M & M's, Kit Kats & Gummi Bears alone
But still we try -
until we are sick - (stuffing our mouths with junk)
Who is there to encourage us to try one thing at a time?

(getting to my point)

I want so much -
out of life
out of people
out of everything

But... GOD
What do I need most?

p.s. GOD - Im wondering when you're gonna answer some of my birthday wishes...

Infatuation
(Initial Thoughts)

I met him
On my way to New York

I talked
He listened
I was wishing
To see him again
I did
We hid – under an oak tree
That day
Sharing dreams
And shit like that
He kissed me
I kissed him back
Until the moon – turned red
And he was laying his head
On my thigh

We counted stars
And I thought
He was
Soooooo
Sweet

Happy Valentine's Day

(a poem I wrote - in high school)

Completely

Was it the way that he walked?
Or the way
That he talked
That mystified me –
And made me think of him
Completely

Was it his pride?
Or all his secrets he had to hide?
That open my mind wide
To oceans
Streams
And rivers
Running free…

If I could jump
On outta this poem
On outta my bones
& roam
- your insides
- and realize
- what’s making my body temperature
- rise
cuz you’ve opened my mind
to things I've never tried

and it was clever
how you waited for me
weighing all the endless
Possibilities

While I was outside
dancing in the rain
you were checking me out
seeing if I was crazy or sane

I took the overhead view
And it lead me to you

And now, I don’t need wings to fly higher
I can walk
Barefoot on fire

My love has taken off
In the atmosphere –
And thoughts of other lovers
Have…
Completely
Disappeared…