How do I feel - when I feel what Im feeling

Its been so long
May be too long...
in between thoughts and breaths
I need more days
more hours
more minutes
to take more steps

more than that - I aint even wearin the right shoes
I wasnt supposed to be here
climbing mountains
or filling my mind with clues

I hate more than anything
more than you
not knowing what to say

I hate more than anything
writing words
saying words
that people take in their own way

take words that I form
and dont let them loose their shape

take words that I form
and dont let them arrive too late

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